love-based righteousness vs. greed-based selfishness

I have this constant running debate in my mind: do I do what I know to be morally right and true, or do I do what is in my own best interest?

Sometimes I block my blog from public view because I'm afraid that the topics I'm discussing and opening up about are going to damage my career, which really comes down to this: I'm afraid I won't be able to make a crapload of money because I'll be punished by the corporate world for speaking the truth.

So I have a choice to make: do I continue to speak the truth, or do I protect myself so I can make more money than I actually need to survive?

It disturbs me that someone so morally centered sometimes has a difficult time deciding between love-based righteousness and greed-based selfishness. (Morally centered, not morally perfect.. there's a big difference! I am far from being morally perfect, thank the gods).

If I have such a hard time choosing between right and wrong, if my moral compass wavers from time to time, it must be even more difficult for those who are not yet self-actualized. And this worries me a bit.

Still..

I choose truth and righteousness.

I choose the power of love.